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Wow it’s been such a busy time for me! I’ve started studying for the leaving cert already!
Sorry its been a while. I will try and be quicker with my blogs!
I want to talk about something that has been a personal struggle for me. It’s sad for me to say that what I am about to about has my affected most of my teenage life, for the worse. That something, is called anxiety. But I’m not talking about anxiety where you get anxious over an important test or if you have to make a speech. I’m talking about anxiety that consumes you, anxiety that swallows you whole.
What I’m talking about is severe irrational general anxiety (There’s social anxiety too but that’s for another blog). For the past three years I have had to deal with severe anxiety problems. I felt nervous going to piano lessons, and piano is something that I adore. I was afraid I would mess up and I was afraid my piano teacher would give out to me. I would wait in the office area and my whole body would feel tight. My heartbeat was faster than normal and I was always feeling tired.
Going to school was a problem too. I would always feel anxious on the bus. I kept having thoughts about things like What if the bus passes my stop… I was especially anxious when the bus was crowded with girls. I was afraid that I would somehow embarrass myself in front of the girls and even other people who were sitting down. Speaking of busses, I always felt uncomfortable when a bus used to passed me by, as something inside me was saying Everyone is looking at you. Read the rest of this entry
