‘I thought there was no way out. Creativity saved my life’- Inspirational speech by actor and activist John Connors

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John Connors accepting his speech at the IFTAs 2018

“This is a huge moment for me. Seven and a half years ago I was sitting in my house in Darndale in a little box room in the darkness contemplating suicide. That’s no mess. I thought there was no way out. My brother Joe reached out to me and we spoke for hours and he said I needed something. Something to latch onto. Something where I could put this energy into. he suggested acting. I dunno why but it was just a lightbulb moment. I remembered coming out of my first class… and it was like I was walking on a cloud.

I just discovered something. This world I never knew existed called creativity. It saved my life, it really did…… Creativity can be a component to heal people.”

I’m a huge fan of John Connors. I have heard him speak out over the years about his background, his community and give voice to many people who feel disenfranchised by Irish politics and the fragmentation that exists in society today. I think he is a great role model for loads of people. He is trying to break out against all the stereotypes that society is putting on him.

He is extremely proud of his traveller background and of course he should be, but society tells him that he shouldn’t be and that being a traveller is something to be ashamed of. In his IFTA acceptance speech for ‘Best Actor’ for ‘Cardboard Gangsters’ he talks about the fact that he can’t get an agent or a casting director to look past the fact that he is a traveller.

Forget all his activism. He is also a great actor. I loved him in Cardboard Gangsters and he thoroughly deserved his award. I saw the film in the cinema and it was one of my favourite Irish films in recent years.

He also talks about seven years previously when he was sitting in a box room in his house in Darndale contemplating suicide. His credits his brother with reaching out to him and suggesting he try acting as an outlet. Suicide is an huge problem in Ireland, but in the traveling community it is an even bigger problem.

He describes finding acting and a way to release his creativity as being a ‘lightbulb moment’ and credits creativity with saving his life. He believes “Creativity can be a component to heal people.” and I believe he is 100% right. Continue reading “‘I thought there was no way out. Creativity saved my life’- Inspirational speech by actor and activist John Connors”


Please don’t give up




Mental health doesn’t discriminate and can affect anyone at any time. It doesn’t care that you don’t have time for this shit, it’s a weekend, or after 5pm.

If you are struggling today please read my blog post which is linked below. I don’t know you, but I do know that you don’t have to do this alone. There is help out there and although it can sometimes just feel too much, or impossible- you can do it. It’s not a race, there’s no rush. Just one tiny baby step at a time. One small minute at a time. You’ve got this 🙄

If you are feeling suicidal, please reach out. To a friend, family-member, mental health help-line, doctor etc just someone. Take some time to read my blog post-war it might help you or someone who really needs to see it will see it shared in your social media accounts. Go easy, be gentle. Xx
A message for anyone who is feeling suicidal 

Remember you can speak to someone confidentially no matter what time of the day or night by calling Pieta House Helpline on 1800 247 247, or Samaritans on 116 123.

Walking around Donegal

Tra Mor, Dunfanaghy Jan 2018

In August I relocated to Donegal after 6 years in Dublin. I miss Dublin lots and living back in a rural area definitely has its downsides. But there are positives. I am surrounded by beauty everywhere.

I’ve been doing lots of walking since I moved back. I’m always astounded by the absolute beauty in this county.

There is so much research to show that exercise has a huge positive impact on your mental health. Exercise in nature has proven itself to be even more effective. I’ll be writing a blog post on the benefits of exercise on your mental health very soon.

Tra Mor Beach Dunfanaghy, Dec 2017.

I’ve been walking lots in nature and it is helping. (Even if it’s only a tiny bit some days) I’ve put some of the pics I’ve taken on my phone into a short video (It’s only 1.40 mins long so check it out)

All pics have been taken on my Samsung Galaxy S7. You can also see more of my pics on my Instagram account 

The world’s a nicer place if only we slowed down

Gravel Walking Man Feet Path Shoes Walk Legs

I was out shopping yesterday, I passed two little girls. One aged about 10, and another aged about 6. The little girl was rushing ahead, and the older one was a little bit slower.

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Which road should I take?

It’s been a while (AGES and ages ) so sorry for the radio silence. A lot has happened in the past few months and hopefully I’ll be able to fill you in soon. I’ve not blogged because I’ve just not been able to write.
I’ve not written anything in about five or six months. My brain just won’t string words together anymore. However, I’m hoping that that will improve when my mood improves. When I say things have been tough, I’m not exaggerating. (But more about that later)

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